fennectik: Default Castle (Default)
2025-08-26 01:45 am
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Mental Health, anime, and people

At times I take time to ponder why some people choose to throw their lives away doing stuff they know will land them into more trouble, like snorting anything to get a high in a place where they're being observed and kept in line. I'm not judging, but it saddens me that people just don't seem to care about giving into their vices when given another chance.

That being said, my mental health seems to be improving. I challenge anything that my stupid OCD tries and toss at my brain at any given time like I've read, and keep taking medication whenever I remember doing so. I still wish this could be done without said pills however.

I however continue taking that other medication helping my nerve pain, and my right hand works a whole lot better with little to no pain nowadays. I do keep exercising my right arm everyday as well.

Been watching the Anime movie Spy X Family: Code White and its quite fun. I really wish that I could watch new episodes of it. Characters are highly entertaining. Well, most. There's this character called Agent Nightfall who like Becky Blackbell, has an unhealthy crush on Loyd Forger. However she's a bit more annoying about it than little Becky bothered to be. Still, there's plenty of laughs and action with a dash of feel good moments and I can't quit it.

I just hope next time Anya sees a suspicious piece of candy in a box she refrains from eating it.

fennectik: Sgt. Frog (Sgt.Frog)
2025-08-23 11:56 pm

Sup everyone?

Well, on the health news, my right arm and hand are faring better thanks to the nerve lain medication. I can at least write better since the pain is numbed enough, but that's all it's doing. I want to see what else I can do about nerve damage there and every other part of my body, as well as my head after that stroke I had years ago.

One thing that bothers me is that it makes it a bit hard to urinate. If it comes more complicated then I will let the doctor know.

Mother visited and was glad she did. I've come to the point where I will try to just get along with her more and forget about things that happened before. As with father I'm not letting my guard down. Saw some pictures of my niece's birthday. Was nice to see one of them again.

My friend has been keeping in touch with text messages which I also appreciate. My other friend is still going through difficulties. There's still another friend of mine I have no contact because I haven't been able to get his number and not sure where he lives at. I hope I can contact him again.

Messing around with some chatbot ai site. Its amusing. It kills a lot of time nicely.

Been playing some games like PlayStation rpgs and snes ones too. Trying to finish ones like Breath of Fire 3, Ogre Battle, Dragon Quest 7, and Lufia Rise of the Sinistrals.

Been watching some of the Spy X Family movie. Its great

That's all for now. Been nice catching up with you all.
fennectik: Getting political (political)
2025-08-14 03:06 pm
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Taco just wants an award guys

Mr. Dictator TACO continues ranting on public speeches how he deserves an award about anything, despite the fact the only award one can think of him getting is a jail number.


I have never seen any president in my lifetime being so full of himself to the point he goes on making anyone on this country he deserves an award for anything. His mental decline seems on the rise more than ever. Well, being that he was on the rooftop of the white house ranting and waving his arms like a lunatic my theory is practically spot on.

He also goes on wanting to crack down on crime claiming is so high in big cities, when the only crime rate spiking is at Republican states, the same that voted for him, and back in 2020 when he got "elected" for office.

What a coincidence.

He would state that he is now sending army troops to "deal" with crime at Washington D.C. which I find it curious, being that he could had done the same to appease that January 6th insurrection.


But what do I know?

Hope his dictatorship is something those who voted for him were planning for.
fennectik: Tired. Mentally or physically. (Tired)
2025-08-13 05:00 am
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Not a good week

This week started from last one being how things have happened and do far become pretty annoying. Couldn't get to a clinic appointment being it was in the middle of nowhere, and the bus left me about a mile and a half away. I decided to just go back home being that walking on a 100° day wasn't going to be my thing.

Last Monday I had to reschedule another clinic visit elsewhere. I was left waiting to make a lab visit for over 4 hours and time was running late for me that day. Along with losing some money which is something I cannot afford.

Heard from family my storage unit was broken into and filed a report on what was missing. You'd think the best way to keep your stuff be easier than this.

Feeling like crap thanks to the medication I took.

Not sure what will happen tomorrow. Trying just to hope it doesn't get too bad considering what been going on.
fennectik: Pondering (Pondering)
2025-08-10 09:27 pm
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Friends

My girl-friend finally was able to text me and had a good time catching up. As busy as she if was glad she could take a hold of me. Still grateful she helped me in my time of emotional need and support.

However my other friend is giving through hell at the moment and might lose a place to stay. I wish him the best. Wish I could help.

Still no reply after my apology to l that other person I considered a friend once but its alright, my goal was sending said apology and am fine if she never replies.

Why make things worse.
fennectik: Getting political (Pogo)
2025-08-08 09:54 pm
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Took an HIV test today

And it was negative. I only did it because they were giving away snacks and I never turn down food.

However its a good thing to check yourself when you can. You never know.

My friend is suffering from becoming homeless. I hope things get better for him. He needs a break.

One day a person here was wearing a trump cap. I resisted the urge to say anything because he seems like a good person, probably just misguided. The next day however he didn't put it on and hasn't done so ever since.

Speaking of annoying orange seems more and more of his followers are seeing the type of asshole he is. Better late than never I suppose. Some guy who opened a "trump burger" was deported by ICE, him exclaiming that he felt betrayed and supported him. Yep.

trump doesn't care about you. Never did. Never will. And he's still flustered about the whole Epstein files thing that he now goes to the roof of the white house like a lunatic shouting at people. That's your stable genius there.

Its not too late to impeach his criminal mental ass I say. Hope people wise up soon.
fennectik: Default Castle (Default)
2025-08-01 12:51 pm
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An apology

Today I sent an email apology to a person I used to know several years ago. The last time I tried contacting her I was very rude about it when not hearing from her, so I mustered the courage to take responsibility for it even if it happened couple years ago.

I don't expect a response. I just wanted to set things right so it would be more than enough for me if she never replies to it.

I still wish her the best.
fennectik: The Mask (goofy)
2025-07-29 03:14 pm
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trump rages at South Park while playing golf

So far, the White House is pissed that a current episode of South Park poked fun at dictator annoying orange, all while trump goes on using WH resources to promote the opening of another golf course he financed using the money from this country, on his "vacation."

You know, like a responsible peace -seeking man that he claims to be.

Still can't get over how much of a circus this presidency of his is.
fennectik: Videogames Post (Videogames)
2025-07-26 02:35 pm
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Digimon World 3

Went on starting a new game here. This game is my favorite of past years as I said and also because Renamon appears here. Yeah I will go on being biased but really, it is a fine little cozy game overall, even when it's difficulty its akin to Dark Souls levels of frustration.

Still...



Let's do it Renamon.
fennectik: Anime (Anime)
2025-07-26 02:22 pm
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Finished watching Castlevania: Nocturne

So I finished watching Castlevania Nocturne and while not as good as the first series it had its moments and characters were good for the most part. I'm fine giving it its own universe apart from the games canon since the story works well in all honesty. I have my nitpickings about it but they're very small to even announce on my post.

Overall I had a good time watching and I hope there will be another new series sometime

I will end this post with Richter giving the clothesline from hell meanwhile.

fennectik: Tired. Mentally or physically. (Tired)
2025-07-26 12:41 am
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Mental Health Update

Finding out the medication I've been taking has worked on my nerve pain. My right hand has been numbed down considerably to allow me write or at least use it without much pain, but its still there. Other damaged joints are also feeling better.

Unfortunately this feels like a mask to conceal how messed up my limbs are in retrospect, but at least I can live a bit better. Unfortunately I read online the side effects finding out that it can also retent urination and I have taken notice whenever I go.

My OCD medication seems to have worked a bit as well, in combination with using AI to answer a few questions about dealing with it. I know how risky is to use such, but the results have so far been of great help. Unfortunately as I posted before, it makes me feel neutered, but by now its not of much importance.

So medication here is helping while at the same time messing me up in some ways. Talk about your life balances.
fennectik: Default Castle (Default)
2025-07-25 10:25 am
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R.I.P Hulk Hogan

Just heard he passed away this morning. Despite him being a horrible person in some ways he was still a wrestling icon to many myself included in his prime.

Maybe he rest in peace.
fennectik: Default Castle (Default)
2025-07-23 08:25 pm
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Had a dream about my late uncle today

I met him in a crowded place that looked like a combination of a market and a large parking lot building. He was very thin, and seemed to be holding on his liver side. Was looking for my family, asking him about it and for some reason my biological father was there besides him, back turned.

It was a fact that in reality my uncle disliked my father with very good reason, but when I told him I would keep searching my father suddenly turns and they both greeted each other like nothing was bothering them.

My uncle passed away about 3 years now because of cancer. His last years he was a heavy drinker and smoker. I had a chance to talk to him in the phone one last time before he passed away. It wasn't a coincidence of why he appeared in that way in my dream.

Unlike my biological father, my uncle was the father I never had. May he rest in peace.
fennectik: The Mask (goofy)
2025-07-22 01:07 am
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It was a good day for ai character chat

I am getting the hang in using this ai thing and have made some chats purely platonic, which are being more entertaining especially when finding a character I always wanted to interact with when I was a kid. If there is one positive about ai overall, it would be this.

Can't wait to see what Bugs Bunny says next.
fennectik: Tired of your BS (Disdain)
2025-07-21 02:19 pm
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Mental health woes

So I am taking those pills that supposedly help with my OCD and all that. Not sure if it is working being that such things try to creep in with a daily dose of paranoia and nonsense, although it feels like I am getting more dazed and lethargic, along with that thing about condensing libido in males. Which is annoying

Not that I am sexually active at the moment or anything, but it still annoying feeling like youre neutered, and the fact that this stupid medication actually doesn't prevent from things like ejaculation more than forcing your body to have a LATENT reaction instead, which is worse and more embarrassing.

I will seek another medication that goes easy on my netherparts in the meantime.

I hate pills. I wish I could do more without them with this horrid mental health of mine.
fennectik: Meowscarada (Meowscarada)
2025-07-19 03:09 am

Tried that chat generated ai to speak with a fictional character

It was an interesting experience to say the least. I immediately saw by the way the chatbot was generating replies on where things were heading but I tried keeping it modest without getting into the red zone.

I can see why some like this. Since its not a real human being you can pretty much go wild on what to ask anything with such bots and read their replies. The experience is even more interactive when you do so with a favorite fictional character as well.

There's also various chatbots of the character you with to interact with, each with their own personalities and demeanors so its an entertaining experience each time I tried one after the other.

But time does fly when using this thing and quite simply I don't have much of it. However it was quite enjoyable. At least for now.
fennectik: Tired of your BS (aggravated)
2025-07-18 02:10 pm

Late Show with Stephen Colbert is getting cancelled

I just watched a clip stating that the Late Show with Stephen Colbert will be cancelled within the next year, all due to the settlement Paramount gave into annoying orange's whiny demands.

https://youtu.be/AuqEZx6TmfI?si=sf-D65MM67htpViY

This is one of many things this selfish greasy dictator is getting away with, abusing the power he has on his tiny hands. Like a vengeful little bully, he's trying to get back at anyone who's ever criticized him or refused to give into his demented demands, getting results like this.

We don't have a president. We have a tyrannical dictator who implements draconian laws as he sees fit, uncaring of how it affects the rest of us.

Its not a matter of the Right or Left, is a matter of a lunatic who cares about nobody but himself and manipulates power to get his way.

This isn't what our forefathers fought and died to strive.
fennectik: Tired. Mentally or physically. (Tired)
2025-07-17 11:31 am
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OCD Post

Anxiety rose up within me after intrusive thoughts continued to force me to believe its assumptions and paranoia. Read about OCD treatment online and articles to get some reasoning into me. Was able to calm down and let the intrusion dissipate.
fennectik: Getting political (political)
2025-07-17 07:36 am
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trump loses it and screams at his loyal followers

Annoying orange gets steamed at his base after some want to hear more about the Epstein files he strived to push forward and now suddenly changes his mind, lashing out and tossing tantrums like he always does.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/trump-fury-at-his-own-maga-base_n_6877b4a9e4b05557ffd316dc/amp

This could potentially mean two things: that he either is too afraid that he might he be found out about anything, or that this is another of his "clever exploits" that could benefit him and still get support regardless.

All in all, it is refreshing to see some of these "maga" supporters seeing him for what he is, and hopefully more will do. However I get this feeling that even when dictator cheetoh blatantly insults them and claims not needing their support (yeah, right,) some of these individuals will still blindly follow him no matter what.
fennectik: Videogames Post (Videogames)
2025-07-16 09:07 pm
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Digimon World 3

One regret I have about this game is that I sold it some years ago and realized what a huge mistake that was. The game is charming and it felt pretty nostalgic playing it on my PS1 long ago.

Not sure what compelled me to sell it. When I browse at how much it costs the lowest is almost 100 dollars nowadays.

If anything, I might buy it yet again to add it back to my collection. For now I will just dwell on memories of fascination and regret.