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montfort

I have an incredible story today...

So I was on wplace, looking at around my area, and I saw someone drew Chuck E Cheese and wrote an invite to a Discord server. So I joined it, right. And I just started talking about how I went to Chuck E Cheese in the late 90s as a kid and then later on in the early-mid 00s. I have a really bad memory issues, but one childhood memory I have is when I went to Chuck E Cheese on my birthday and the Chuck E animatronic was sitting behind something. I wanted to see if the animatronic had feet/legs, so I peered over it, and he said "do you mind?" That scared the shit out of me!! It's like he knew I wasn't supposed to be there!

And I find out from people who have encyclopedic knowledge of Chuck E Cheese that only one animatronic could say "do you mind?", and it was a location where I lived during the late 90s. And the chat fucking exploded because I might have seen an exclusive stage set and design of Chuck E that was around for a month. This was in the summer of 1997, since I had a Disney's Hercules themed party. I told my mom, she dug out the scrapbook, and I sent the server some photos with my face edited out.

Guess what. I was at "the" location, the abbreviation is AAM. The photo of me with the mascot Chuck E didn't have his face, but what was shown was an exclusive suit. And they could identify it was that stage by zooming in on a shelf in the background. The chair and tablecloth in other photos are identifiable too.

I was at Montfort and this means a big fucking deal to Chuck E Cheese nerds. I've been getting pinged about it in the last hour and I showed my mom the reactions to the photo I sent, I got 2 friend requests too lol. I think I'm going to have fun here

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AIcels stay losing

I swear to god anyone that sings the praises of ChatGPT being the future must be an easily impressed normie. I was lurking another site, and saw the idea of using AI to analyze your sketches to critique it comes up. I figured that would be a theoretical "good usage" for AI art alongside thumbnails or a reference tool, so I gave ChatGPT a sketch that looks off to examine.

It took over 10 back-and-forths for it to do just that. What a useless clanker, I could've spent that time looking up photos lol. That's what gets me when people talk about the time spent training or editing AIgen images counts as "work"... the time you spent could've been used to just write/draw yourself... lazy asses...

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The Permanent Stain

I really hate to link to something by Andrew Sullivan. I'm aware of his issues ('94...), he's the type of commentator I just read privately for the sake of not having an echo chamber and to roll my eyes or nod at 40% of the time. He's been annoying me half of the time. But today's post hit me hard.

The Permanent Stain

It’s been over a decade now since Grendel emerged from the forest and the metaphors are understandably tired. But a sentence in a recent Mark Helprin piece jogged my amygdala nonetheless. He described the president as someone who “behaves like a wild boar crashing through a field of well-tended crops. (Look carefully at the eyes, and you see it.)”

Yes, you do. Helprin is as far from being a leftist as one might imagine — which, of course, is precisely why he sees the feral glint in Trump’s eyes the way he does. Conservatism is prudent, diligent care for the inheritance of the past, and the shepherding of constitutional democratic governance away from the shoals of dysfunction and ideology. In that sense, Trump is conservatism’s actual nemesis: a wild boar — psychologically incapable of understanding anything but dominance and revenge, with no knowledge of history, crashing obliviously and malevolently through the ruined landscape of our constitutional democracy.

This very Greek tragedy — conservatives killing the Constitution they love because they hate the left more — is made more poignant by Trump’s utter cluelessness: he doesn’t even intend to end the American experiment in self-government and individual freedom. He isn’t that sophisticated. He is ending it simply because he knows no other way of being a human being. He cannot tolerate any system where he does not have total control. Character counts, as conservatives once insisted, and a man with Trump’s psyche, when combined with his demagogic genius, is quite simply incompatible with liberal democratic society. Unfit.

[... blah blah, a lot of recap on the last 8 months and Sullivan's hateboner for Biden, more notable snippets under the cut]

( Read more... )

When a disaffected conservative who loves Reagan and Thatcher is in the right (no pun intended), that's really when you need to reconsider who the fuck we elected. (I disagree with the successor part, but whatever. Trump is in awful shape, I don't think MAGA will live after he dies.)

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updates

upd8

From the Neocities feed:

I took the review I did for Game Change (HBO drama based on the 2008 election) offline for a few days because I finished the book last week and thought deleting it would motivate me to update with how I felt about that. It didn't, I have such little interest in upkeeping this site. Not a loss because I really want to forget about this political climate.

I'm really not feeling the love creativity-wise anymore, and the past 15 months on top of how much of a pain it is to upload/update my art, I'm really tired. This is why I've been slow to respond to emails, I'm really frustrated and tired of this sphere lately.

If I wasn't such a workaholic I'd take this as a cue to look into Github push updates, but I don't even care at this point. I'll upload art drawn for me last month some other time.

I don't even think the page was all that controversial and neither was the update with info from the book I was chipping at, but every day I wish the joy and investment I had in "smallweb" or whatever in 2022-2023 would come back. If I'm not reminded that my ex was my main inspiration and motivator, I just don't see a point in "making" anything because the same Twitter doomscrollers are there. This can be chalked up to just "depression" or whatever, but I really hate this. I feel like I can't express anything without "callout" types on my ass, social media is boring, my usual Discord company I'm also uncomfortable with. I'm tired and I don't know when things will get better.

Here's a tutorial on deploying to Neocities I found that's pretty good, by the way.

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toyhouse + complaining

I'm trying to bite the bullet and be more active in artist spaces despite my low social energy, so I'm alerting more people to my Toyhouse to get over my fear of being public. I "cleared" my mental inventory of OCs, but my yumeship or whatever OC doesn't have a page yet because I'm embarrassed. But I need to just look around more and get over myself, at some point...

I don't want to be cunty, but I do find these art communities really frustrating on the surface and am trying to just block and find normal people. I'm aware my profile warning sounds rude, but so often I see "DNIs" laying out every opinion the user has, and I just think... You're not that important for people to know every thought in your head. Stop making your opinions so central to everything. Even as someone who has "un-PC" tendencies and dislikes a lot of stripes of "political people", I don't understand why people online act like this.

I used to be like that, until I dealt with someone who was a more extreme form of this. And I realized the way I felt seeing this person talk about nothing but their unpopular opinions was probably how other people feel with me. When I click on someone's page, I'm not looking for their opinion on abortion or gender politics or whatever. I'd go on someone's blog if I wanted to see that. And at this point, I really don't. I've been avoiding a lot of acquaintances more due to politics in the last year than I have in the last decade. I'm tired of walking on eggshells and being paranoid of everyone.

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oh ho ho i love to consoom

Watch on YouTube

I know I've got nothing
Except plastic
Now I'm running
Going straight to the cashport
Slip it in
Get it, drive
Pressin' on bucks now
Feelin' with it, gonna win
First world competition
I even get a guarantee

Oh ho ho
I love to consume
All these buyings
Got me stayin' in tune

We got a French's cops
Wavy old paletot
See me wreck it
Brown anthrax mountain slicker
One for the money
Two for the show
Betta bend over
You'll go go go

Buy buy a new obsession
Buy buy your own cremation
Buy buy a new complexion
Buy buy a permanent erection

I want more
I want it all
I want to get what I'm looking for
I want a pound of lead
A pound of flesh
A pound of hate
A pound of diffident

Cry now, we fry later
Gonna buy now, pay later
Put the pedal to the metal
The metal to the floor
The floor to the people
Cause the people want more

Buy buy a little fixation
Buy buy a little sensation
Buy buy a new complexion
Buy buy a permanent erection
Buy buy a good luck charm
You can buy buy a plastic arm
Buy buy a new obsession
Buy buy your own cremation
Buy buy a new fixation
Buy buy a permanent erection
Buy buy a mind expansion
On peace, love, and destruction

I'll get a new dog
A many-mix
A Harley made
Vacuum cleaner
Rubber doll
Header sofa
Motorbike
Swedish sauna
Smartline polaroid
Drugs that make you paranoid
Facelift
Silicone goatee
Motor phone
Buy now, pay later
Gonna cry now, fry later

Oh ho ho
I love to consume
All these buyings
Get in like a high noon

Buy buy
Buy buy
Buy buy
Buy buy

This song aged like fine wine...

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mundane

ugh

I realized why I've been sleeping so badly lately. I need to lay off the melatonin. I have approx 1.5mg, which is... too much I guess... it makes me crazy and only sleep 4-5 hours and not go back to sleep. Going back to just 1mg and a Diphenhydramine even though it doesn't automatically knock me out like it does combined with 1.5. 1.5-2mg makes me paranoid as hell too.