Sep. 30th, 2025 06:38 pm
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I really need better friends. It says a lot how I can't talk to anyone about the string of traumatic incidents in the last 16 months, and have to actively pretend they didn't happen around people who knew my ex. I feel unsafe talking about personal things around people I thought were my friends because they'll use it against it me or read me in bad faith. If anything bad happens to me, absolutely no one will have my back.
I just really don't know how to find better friends. I haven't used Discord in a while but a DM I sent expressing discomfort over sharing a GC was left unanswered. Just like I expected. How do you even find people who are mutually interested in what you make, what you have to say, your personal life, etc. Feels like friends nowadays are just people you send memes to, or sounding boards.
There are entire albums, former passions, and hobbies I can't touch anymore because it reminds me of how fucking cruel my ex was to me by dumping me to the curb and refusing to contact me "until I get better". Trying to date diagnosed sociopaths: Not even once.
I just really don't know how to find better friends. I haven't used Discord in a while but a DM I sent expressing discomfort over sharing a GC was left unanswered. Just like I expected. How do you even find people who are mutually interested in what you make, what you have to say, your personal life, etc. Feels like friends nowadays are just people you send memes to, or sounding boards.
There are entire albums, former passions, and hobbies I can't touch anymore because it reminds me of how fucking cruel my ex was to me by dumping me to the curb and refusing to contact me "until I get better". Trying to date diagnosed sociopaths: Not even once.